Wednesday, April 16, 2008

As the title goes

Everything i know, it starts with this and hopefully would end with this because as far as i know, i have the capability of ending on a very vague note but hopefully it would be logical, and since it is everything i know this should not be a problem.
To start with, I know this is my first blog hence writing it is a bit difficult but i am writing it just to get used to writing or rather typing things that would make sense to me and of course people who read it by mistake.
I know a lot about football, some call it a game for hooligans, others call it the gods game, all i know of this is that it a game that i would play or for that fact anybody would play with his/her heart like any other game. So why football why not any other game? Some people have asked me that question, I find it very difficult to answer it because it is very difficult to justify something you really like if it is without reason. You possibly cannot justify passion for the game or for a team. You cannot justify the hours of hard work for a good game. You can only justify using the words its my passion and i like the game very much. But in some cases if somebody asks me why is there so much passion for it then my mind would go blind. No answer would come. Football has been my passion for years now, 7 to be precise that was an indirect indication that I am not very old. Though i doint think anybody would get it. But anyways even today if anybody ask me i still have not found an answer to that question, not that i am looking for the answer to that question but it makes me wonder.
The next thing I know is my music. Music has been my life, it is a great soul booster. Music is for every occasion. Music when you are drunk, music when you are happy music when you are sad etc. That's the best thing about music, a song or a tune for every occasion in life. Even in music there is one thing i don't understand like there is for football. The type of music we listen to. Most people's choices are restricted or they are vast of a particular genre. That i totally respect a persons choice is of his own, but then the inevitable question arises. Questions such as why do you listen to such music or in Hindi " tumhare kaan nahi fat te kya ye sun kar ". As a person from India the tolerance levels are very high but then the tolerance for people around for music is very low. They don't tend to understand that, " I like this kind of music that is why i listen to it " or since the question is in Hindi let us answer it in Hindi " Mujhe ye pasand hai, Usme tera kya ". But then that would sound quite rude so an Indian like me (I am flattered) would just give a meek smile of consideration for the persons words and actually make actions which would prove he is right. And the person who attacked my music would call it a victory and bounce forward searching for more people on whom he could give his very successful advice. This is all said and done because the tolerance level in music is very high but also very shallow.
Coming to work, I know work bores me a lot and even talking about it is of no use because it would cause me only frustration that would be the bad part of work. But some days, which is very rare, when i enjoy my work. The day i get things done easily. So easily that things pile up on me. That would be just my day but then the next day i realise that I cant keep up the good work like yesterday and have loads of work today which wont be done until the next uprising. Though one thing i noticed about work, people who are my enemies by the end of this blog, never question work not considering people you work with but people who ask but never listen. People back home show interest in what I am saying only for a maximum of 2 seconds. After that they switch of and nod their heads in mere approval. But this is the story in their heads, "he is not in the US, unlike my son, once he is done with i need to go and ask some other boy whether he is going to the US. I wonder if he is going to the US which university would he be going. But how could this fellow not go to the US the opportunities there are more(though i have no idea of the opportunities) the place is clean unlike India ....................." this is a very small dialogue in their mind. This is just the prelude of the infinite suggestions they would have for me if i hadn't started talking about my "Job". But then the reactions on the peoples faces is just amazing for which i would talk over and over again. But then again the people i fear the most are the people who are actually listening. As I would have no idea that they are listening to me and they would ask doubts which raise doubts about my working efficiency and the obvious embarrassment. The above is considering the fact they have no idea and just by listening to my words ask questions, imagine my plight if there was a person who actually knew my work. The conversation would be just great or the simplest of them would be....
Me - " I am doing some thing for some company "
Nemesis - " That something you do what exactly is it? "
Me - "If i were to explain it, it means working with a government company and helping it reach a deadline in so-so field "
Nemesis - "Is that so? I myself have worked in that. You must be doing this and that then? "
Me - " Yes. I would be doing that but right now I am studying for CAT or probably even GRE hope to get into a good university "
Nemesis - " Oh good. Lost yet another one to the Brain Drain eh?"
Me - " Yeah I guess "
Even though I am not interested in giving any competitive exam i have to lie to avoid being embarrassed. But this i know could go bad if the Male is interested in my work and his female in my going to the US.
My 3 aspects of life have been covered and out of them 2 are my passion and one is a compulsion for survival that is what most people with me say. But these 3 have a common factor, I have my interest so does any one but then my interest are questioned and asked to be justified. Which i don't, as justifying a person who does not understand " I do it because I like it " it would be very difficult into making him understand what liking exactly is even the dictionary would probably fail in making him realise the words like, passion and devotion towards sport/music.
I did not mention food because it is essential and should be enjoyed in every aspect and the same goes for drinking occasionally or even regularly and i mean water also.

5 comments:

Haru said...

Hey good start.Its true,passion cannot be justified.period. Keep blogging!

Estel said...

Nice one. Especially like the bit about what people think about your work. Please continue explaining other things that you know about in your future posts. Cheers!

blistering barnackles said...

thank you your comments taken and will be followed... sincerely

Nik said...

chooo**** sala . pointwise likha kar .. haha ..

Unknown said...

"Do you know what nemesis means? ... A righteous infliction of retribution manifested in the form of an appropriate agent .. personified in this case .. by a 'orrible %unt ... me" ... :)