The trick to a demented mind

There are only 3 people in the world. Those who understand things, those who don't understand things and those who pretend they understand but have absolutely no idea but the effort they put in for pretending give them the points and a separate category.
So when you put 3 people who represent each of the above mentioned categories in a room and ask them to discuss a few selected topics.

1st Topic
How do you think the world will end?

The conversation will always be initiated by the person who pretends. Lets call him P
P: I think the world would end when the pigs fall from the sky.

Of course, this is confusing start to the conversation but Mr. P thinks its better to start of on a lighter note and hence has said that. To which Mr. U (the person who understands) responds.
U: Pigs from the sky are you joking? What you just said is not only impossible but absolutely preposterous. The only way the pigs can fall from the sky is if they are in an airplane which is flying really high and suddenly, someone opened the back door of the aircraft and the pigs are going oink oink into the sky. Its not only stupid but just proves the level of discussion we would be having. But since I am also supposed to answer, I would say that the most genuine way the world could end is due to the melting of the ice caps which would result in flooding of the lands, which in turn would cause food shortage and a tremendous wave of evolution which could completely wipe the existence of man and the great cities that we have today will be lost like the Atlantis.

There has to be an input and hence the person who does not understand has to get involved. So there are two ways he can get involved.
1. Indulge himself in ignorance and nod.
2. Try to ask question and clarify the things he does not understand.

If he takes the 1st path, I personally believe, he would have a happy and a successful life. As the most destructive things ever made on earth are mostly due to the knack of investigating things you don't understand. (I am sure the people who understand will have many things to say about this view)

If he takes the 2nd path there are 2 things that can happen.
1. He develops an interest and builds his knowledge based on the facts presented.
2. He does not develop an interest and indulge himself in ignorance and nod.

So for the sake of getting involved Mr. I says this
I: Atlantis?

U: You should know about Atlantis?

P: Yeah Dude. Everybody knows about Atlantis.

The blank expression on Mr. I baffles Mr. U and Mr. U takes it upon himself to educate Mr. I about the city. While he is being educated Mr. P is trying to fill in with interesting tid bits. So instead of explaining what Mr. U is saying I shall mention only the parts of Mr. P as, whats the fun in reading about the truth here when you could get it from a much more reliable source.

So, Mr. U starts of with the establishment of Atlantis (for the moment lets assume Mr. I  shows ignorance) and he is going blah blah blah. Mr. P trying to keep saying a few points by interjecting in between but his words are drowned in the overwhelming knowledge of Mr. U
A confident person such as Mr. U would not be interrupted but then Mr. P is desperate to show his stupidity
P: Well, like you said, Atlantis was drowned it means this phenomenon of global warming must have occured before also. Which could also mean that the world will complete a full circle when we drown due to the same reason.

The chain of thought that lead to Mr. P deduce such an excellent hypothesis was exemplary to say the least. At least that is what Mr. P thought and that lead to him having a very proud smile on his face and was awaiting some acknowledgment of any kind to come his way.
But Mr. U was not impressed as that was not proven and putting in strange ideas or rather making up stories was not something which he would eat up. This interruption and the nonsensical information passed on made his head ache and pity the ignorance of the other 2 people. But since, as mentioned before, he felt it was his duty he entertained Mr. P's hypothesis by asking him a few questions.
U: What makes you say that Atlantis was lost because of global warming?

P: Well it drowned.

U: (Irritably) Its not like it knew how to swim.

P: (with a smirk and a "can you believe this guy" look) Atlantis was an island OK. I know that much. How could you even suggests that it can swim.

U: Yes. Atlantis was an island like I mentioned before. But it sank into the ocean. So you are telling me that your "global" warming explanation for the disappearance of Atlantis happened only to Atlantis and no other island in the vicinity?

Mr. P had lost his chain of thought since he thought that Atlantis was an entire civilization or rather the name given to the entire world  before the dawn of life as is recorded. The counter question by Mr. U made him very uncomfortable but since he did not want to appear stupid he simply came up with this.
P: Well. How do you think it happened?

Mr. U was sensible enough to see that Mr. P was indeed pretending to know about stuff he has no clue about. So decided to play around a bit with him (not in the perverted sense). So he began explaining and giving references about the countless theories he had read but this time directing all his attention to Mr. P
Mr. I who, very cleverly yet unknowingly, had diverted the topic from the original question was going through either of the below 2 cases
1. Boredom. As he has completely lost interest in the topic because this was not concentrated on his question any more.
2. Confusion. As, apart from his earlier question many more questions had been raised. If he were listening to it, it was clear that there was information being passed on but since he did not understand any of it the bits that he had understood by the limited concentration level were now confusing.
So whatever happens Mr. I will eventually reach the state if ignorance because the amount of information is immense for it to process.
Meanwhile, Mr. U is trying to reveal the true identity of Mr. P who in turn is trying his level best to fend of attacks by submitting calculated guesses in equal intervals of time. An excerpt from the conversation which had now moved on.
U: So therefore when you see that Archimedes saw the displacement of water. He ran about shouting eureka. This was known as ..

But before Mr. U could finish,
P: The water does displace when you put things into it. That happens all the time. To think it needed someone to take a bath to figure it out is insane.

U: ... Archimedes Principle of Buoyancy.

Mr. U had no answer to this and thought it best to carry on. But this particular break made him realize that the discussion had gone completely off track. So he tried to think back to where they had lost track of it. But this intermediate silence prompted a feeling of victory in Mr. P.
Mr. P thought that his impeccable presence of mind had so baffled Mr. U (part of it is true though the stupidity of Mr. P is what baffled Mr. U) that he might as well corner him and go for the killer blow. Though Mr. P had no clue how to land that punch so like always he experimented, after all it worked the last time.
P: So to understand you correctly most of the things that happen around us happen all the time. Just a few people thought it would be clever to name them and take all the credit for it.

Mr. U was obviously frustrated at the apparent foolishness of Mr. P and soon became angry at the stupidity of Mr. P's thought process that he considered it best to ignore it. But little did he know that it was not easy to ignore stupidity and its especially difficult to ignore stupidity when stupidity begins to think that's its being intelligent. So Mr. U tracks his steps and brings back the conversation to the original question.
U: Rather than talking about everything in the world we were discussing how the world will end.

P: Yeah. I don't even know how we deviated from this topic. It seems a pretty interesting one.

U: It seems all started with the Atlantis point.

P: I think I made that point.

U: You did not make that point.

P: Of course you did not make that point. I made that point.

U: No you did not.

P: I am telling you I did not.

U: You said you made it.

P: When did I say that? I said I made it.

And this went on for some time till Mr. I could not take it and said
I: I made it.

To which both Mr. U and Mr. P said
P: That's what I am saying. I made the point.

U: What is wrong with you? He said he made the point.

P: I don't know what is wrong with you. Maybe you should get checked.

U: Do you even understand what you are talking about?

P: I sure do know what I am talking about.

U: What are you talking about?

P: I am talking about you.

So this went on for some more time. Eventually Mr. U turned to Mr. I for support
U: Dont you think this P is a crazy person?

But Mr. I had learned that no good can ever come up if he opened his mouth at that moment and preferred to simply shrug his shoulders. Without any lack of support from Mr. I and Mr. P, Mr. U was extremely frustrated and eventually opted to leave the room.

Moral of the story:
When you put 3 individuals having the following characteristics
1. Knowledge
2. Ignorance
3. Pretentious
Ignorance beats them both, pretentious beats knowledge and knowledge would be the first to leave because it feels it deserves better.

Oh you stunning beauty, oh your wonderous gaze

Everytime you look at me you look divine

Whether it be through a camera or through a film

Each time you take me with you

With you to a land which possesses no demons

A land which has no boundaries

Oh you stunning beauty, oh your amazing smile

Everytime you smile at me i feel alive

Over the years that have gone by

Your smile still remains radiant

Shining through every darkness

Which surrounded your life

Oh you stunning beauty, oh your splendid grace

Every move you make has people looking at you alone

While you walk everybody stops and gazes

When you turn, its like a wish fulfilled

When you glance through the corner of your eye

Its like the moonlight which falls so softly on me

Oh you stunning beauty, oh the love of my life

Wish i was born in your time

Wish i could be there to be loved by you

Wish you could be loved by me

Lastly, i wish if you would have still been alive

Though that has never stopped me from loving you.

Dedicated to the most elegant and beautiful woman in the world....

Cynicism

There are a lot of things that I am cynical about. I might as well end up cursing the whole world. But then the glory in been cynical is by making at least a little bit sense. The wonderful thing about cynicism is that you can say anything and through one angle it is always true. Its not lies, it partly is the truth and since everybody has a bit of cynicism in him/her they are bound to agree on your point as an alternate way. I have always been able to think of things in the most critical way. Any problem that comes to me or any work is assigned I always start with a very negative attitude. I know that most of the times a “positive” frame of mind is the best solution but it is also a drab. It is wasteful to think “positive” because a job at hand does not sort itself. It has to be done. As far as my experiences have shown, any work which has begun the process of getting done never finishing unless an effort is put. While putting an effort, it is after all “human” to start thinking negative. There are not many people who start with positive and end with positive. Now again don’t go about shouting that this is my point of view. Of course this is my point of view and to tell you something else this is how cynics think. We start of completely negative. Though at the end of it all, we turn much more positive, in terms of percentage, when compared to the positive blokes. Lets try with an example, we start with lots of negativity. As soon as some work is given we outright deny it. We say there is no way in the world it can be done. Now at this point the person who is assigning you the work has two options

1. Assign the work to someone else.
2. Try convincing the cynic to do the work.

There is no discussion necessary when it comes to the first point. Of course the other person is going to work and get the necessary appraisals. But the cynic he is having a time of his life rather than ponder over a problem. Now in this case if the work is specific to the work the cynic has been doing all the time he works and is considered to be an expert there is a silver lining. The other person who has been assigned the work will come to the cynic and ask for help. Considering the experience and the knowledge of the cynic he will try to help out the other person (most likely a junior) with the problem but never end up solving the problem, which means he will be recognized for his help on the issue at hand and also necessarily be awarded as suited the best. The cynic in such situations will make sure that the problem is solved by the other person but will give his “invaluable inputs” when the other person is stuck.

Consider the second point, the person who is assigning the work tries extra hard. The response of the cynic will depend on the level of cynicism he is on.

A low level cynic will take the problem at hand immediately without much more drama. But he will again start the problem with cynicism. He will definitely consider himself lucky if he is going to solve the problem. But still to show that, the outright denial of the problem ever finding a solution, is still the right approach he/she will keep denying and if the problem is actually very difficult or “out of scope” we just stand there giving them a wry smile and say “I told you so”. If the problem is solved then it is a good thing anyways isn’t it?

The medium level cynic is the cleverest soul. He does not want to solve the problem. He will not be persuaded so easily. He will ask for people to work with him for the problem. He will set a very large deadline. He will think about the solution without actually going through the problem and give you a brief description and he would not care if that is what you are expecting or not. He will bargain with all his might before eventually taking the issue. He takes things to the next level. If ever the solution he gives is not considered or if the problem is, again, actually very difficult and “out of scope” he will not stay still and smile. He will go on a rampage. He will accuse everything and everybody. He will ruin the person who tried to get work out of him. He will see to it that the next time, some smart ass comes over and gives him an issue, that the smart ass really knows what he is doing and not just wasting both his own time and the cynics time. This level of cynic is very dangerous because he can play the game very well and also goes to the extent of making your life miserable.

The upper level of cynicism is very rash with every word he would say. He would not be ready to accept any problem. He would give irrational excuses to defend why he is denying the problem. He would even go to an extent of saying, “yes, I am not working. But still I will not take the current issue because there is no point in taking an issue which cannot be solved.” The person who is assigning will either give up after a lot of fight and go on or will simply assign the problem to some one else. The true hard core cynic has giving all hope of getting even close to trying to find a solution. Hence he will not help with the issue at all even when the other person comes asking for help.

At the end of all this, everybody is a cynic. Everybody first thinks that every problem is impossible. But the main benefit of doing that is the end result. The confidence is very high at the end of it all. He/she feels like they can take on anything at that particular moment. If you start thinking about an issue with a positive frame of mind and end the issue at the same level there is no gain of confidence. You might be as positive as your were without much addition. There would be addition only after you have solved many such problems and on the overall scale you would have grown a tiny mm on the graph. But then a cynic’s graph shows amazing versatility and improvement. People rely on them more just by statistics irrespective of his attitude because, like it is said, in the end the work is done.

Oh the sacrifice

Oh the sacrifice. Oh the vacations. Oh the resting under the tree after playing in the hot sun. I am not that old to keep ranting about these petty things. I am still very young when compared to the aged and the wise men that survive in this country. But still it really angers me, damages my equilibrium when I see kids these days just playing all day long without any worries, attending summer camps, watching movies, and doing whatever they wish to do.

“It is their age. You also did the same things when you were young”

My father does say the correct thing but why can’t we have these summer vacations even while we work. Every morning I wish I did not have to wake. Every morning I want my mother call out to me and hand me my breakfast. I sit in front of the TV watching cartoons and no one in this world can stop me from doing so. No one asks me to study. No one tells me to sleep early. I love that life. Actually everybody loved that life. Except the over ambitious who want to achieve anything they can while they can. But I am not over ambitious. Heck, I am not even ambitious. I have no idea what I want to do. I always feel that every person is supposed to do something. It is left to the person to make it come true. But all I ever feel of is a long vacation. I think I am not made for the rat race. I am one of those lazy people who would lie there and wonder about the next best thing that can happen. I do not know when I became so lazy. I do not mind reading. Reading is good. I do not mind thinking about things which do not make any sense in the present world we live in. Even in office I would prefer sitting and typing my thoughts into the computer. But I would never want to work.

“Work is essential for your existence. How else will you earn and provide for you and your family?”

Pesky friends who try to make sense with every sentence they frame. Though, they are right. How else will I support my laziness? I will have to eventually end up working to support what ever I want to do whenever I realize what I want to do is. But then everybody is working. Everybody thinks about getting a good job with a lot of money. I would not mind getting a lot of money if someone just gave it to me. The icing on the cake would be if they gave me a job. The only point of a job is a steady salary. Other than that I do not see any sort of mental satisfaction that any person can achieve of it. If he does think that he is satisfied working every day, then I would say he is “mental” (quoting the word of my very good friend Arora). Though there must be a small percentage of this very vast population who are satisfied with their jobs. To them I say all the best. The word mental is just out of frustration.

“You should not be so lethargic. You say those people who are satisfied with their jobs to be mental. But the truth is you are mental because you do not enjoy what you do.”

Damn, these philosophical speech. I am very bad at listening to such language. I don’t know why, but I end up yawning at the use of every word which under any other circumstances would keep me interested. I do not think it is the words that are used it is the tone. It seems to be like a very slow melodramatic scene which is unfolding and I am bound by my hands to sit there and listen to this, because if I get up and start running, then people tend to get hurt. Most of the words feel like a blur. How I listen to the whole speech can be better explained by the understanding of the Doppler Effect. Some words are nice and loud. The rest are silent and distant. The saddest part is I have no control over the words I hear. If I did have control I could at least listen to the important ones and the long and endearing speech that the other person is giving is not lost in the wilderness of other beautiful things that occupy a normal individual’s mind.

“Doppler Effect is the change in frequency of a wave for an observer moving relative to the source of the wave.”

What Doppler said was true. Everything changes with relation to the position you are in. Where you lie is what you see with respect to where everybody else is at that precise moment. But what you fail to see is the effort every body has put in. The mere mention of effort makes me want to go to sleep. This is not because of what I am or what I wish to do. It is because the word, for me, would mean to do some action on my part which clashes with my laziness. I hate anything which tries to move me out of my comfort levels. The word effort itself sounds so tiresome and makes you feel that it would be equivalent to climbing a mountain. Though the journey would not end at the peak but also you need to come down. So the journey does not end at the top, it continues until you reach to the very depths of life.

“You should not aim for the mediocre. You should aim big. You should feel that what ever you want to fight for is yours for the taking and with that attitude you will definitely grow as a human being.”

What if I don’t want to dream big? I would not want something exotic. I would like lots of money but without effort. That is a very fancy dream that one can have and everybody knows that it is not the truth so I concur with their opinion. Aiming big is essential for most of the people who have dreams or have a vision. This vision or aim that people talk about is very confusing for a person like me. I cannot, absolutely, think about something I would want to do with my life. You may call me stupid, mental (again the words of my dear friend Arora), or even foolish. But still thinking about such things makes me feel very uneasy and never gave me the satisfaction when I really tried to venture down the lanes of one of my many ‘aims’. Instead it did lead me to think at the end whether this is really what I wished to end up with. At the end I would try my best to convince myself that it is right. But at the very end it feels like there is a very simple part of life that I am leaving out if I go with the ‘aim’. This simple life is very tricky. One moment I am sure that the life I chose I not the one is want to lead, but the very next the simple life illusion fades away. It is as if trying to seek me. It feels as if it is drawing me towards it existence so that I can see with my own eyes the beauty that, probably, only my eyes can appreciate.

“You cannot chase a haze. You need a vision which is clear so that you can move with a calculated approach that can assure you of everything you desire.”

Yes, that is so true. I would love to have clear vision. I would love to chase a clear picture. The rosy picture of desire really does please the heart. When you think about it, it does not sound difficult. It feels like within arms distance. All you need to do is reach out. You might even feel the slightest touch of the beautiful life but the path is hidden. This is the absolute frustration. Though laziness is very much the part of me I would not be a person who would refrain from doing something I would want to do with my whole body involved into the process. It is very strange the way I tell things. I myself find it very interesting but confusing most of the times. To this I have never had an answer and the possibility of this getting solved in the immediate near future does not look like a very positive answer.

“What is the point in staying confused? You must have something that really attracts you. It could be anything. Tell me. I shall help you.”

Counseling is not very wise. I think they pretend to be wise by asking the question which you ask yourself everyday. By asking such questions, the listener gets excited and answers what he really feels like. I think the reason behind this is because the listener thinks he is answering to himself as the questions are very similar to almost every other conversation he has with himself. I would, I think give a very strange answer to all this. A word, or a sentence, which suits the occasion would be nice. I am more likely to say “May the force be with you” than something legitimate and with relation to the current topic in question.

Well strange as I may be, I do not wish you would understand. This is not for you to understand me but a way to make me understand myself which I think is a near impossibility.

“A complicated mind is not that complicated. It is the abundance of ideas that makes it complicated. The only way of making things simpler is by selecting the right idea which also is the most difficult part.”

Fudge It (Part 2)

My Office is a very strange place. Apart for my earlier nemesis, there are a few more who are worth a mention. These are the people I work with. The reason I say this is they try to make things complicated when those things are pretty straightforward. I would not say that I am pure and without mistakes. I have made a few mistakes of my own but they were original. Same goes for some other people around me. But then there are a few people who actually commit the mistake they have committed earlier and now they have no clue about the happenings. They always tend to show a blank face when we ask them "What the hell did you do?". The only way to figure out the mistake/problem is to ask people around them what the person, who has committed the mistake, was doing. After recovering from the shock they also fill in with the details. It would all be in patches. One bloke says something like, "He went out for lunch and then when he came back .... ". Such information is of no use in solving the mystery. I call in everybody who I think might have an idea about this strange problem at hand. After arranging all the bits and pieces of information the whole discussion comes to the point of finally solving the problem. This takes the whole day. One by one, my comrades abandon me and rightly so. Finally by the end of the day those loyal to me stick around and we find out the problem. It is amazing how most of the problems always are solved at the end of the day.

I should not be so harsh in saying such things about those people, as we were the same. The only part which is our saving grace and also the worst thing, we learnt from these mistakes and committed fresh mistakes which had no connection with the first one.

Once I made a mistake of actually making a change (This change was something I never truly understood until now. It took me ages to figure out how to actually solve it.) The change was tested by yours truly and approved after a lot of interrogation.

Boss: "Is the change working"

Me: "Yes Sir. Definitely working."

Boss: "You sure?"

Me: "Yes sir. Definitely working."

So much confidence is not very good. I realized that only later when the change did not work and caused many other problems for which my colleagues still have not forgiven me. But then, mind you, this has not happened too many times. But I did learn from this. What did I learn? I learnt to follow the below steps.

1. Make a change.

2. Keep it secret.

3. Keep it extremely safe.

4. Wait for the right moment. Look around you if any body is watching.

5. Obviously it is a long process. So, in the meantime try figuring out what could go wrong if it did go online.

6. Make it online.

I think the people who are working on such problems now, are not doing the step 5 properly. I believe they go into hibernation after the step 3 and the day they wake up the jump to step 6.

The above situation was only when we were under the probation and had to show that we were jackasses who would work whatever the situation may be. Now after so many years (2 years), I have gained information and also the knowledge which I can proudly pass on. Now such problems do not happen.

It is only during the start that a human being realizes the deep shit he/she is in. Is it hereditary? Is it something that can be cured? Well I do not know. But I surely can say this. Hope is what made Yoda think that Luke Skywalker shall end the war and bring peace to the Galaxy. A very strange ending but what the hell, Fudge It.

Fudge It (Part 1)

My office is a very strange place to work. I would categorize them in three different classes

1. There are people who help you without hesitation.

2. There are also others who screw you properly if they help you.

3. Obviously there have to people who really screw you and also provide no help.

I, sadly, work in an environment which has many people who screw you and provide no help, few people who screw and help and exactly one person who helps without hesitation(though I keep that person only for special questions because I would not want him/her to migrate to any other category). So my experiences here have been very weird and also utterly unsatisfactory. But then my voice is just a tinkle on a football field.

One experience I had with a person who lies in the 3 category will explain my hatred towards them. There was a major problem and I was just a spectator to the whole conversation. We had to report the issues which assigned to us and for that the "supervisor" called us for a meeting with these hot shots as they call themselves in their dreams. I along with my comrades prepare ourselves for the onslaught(onslaught, because we had not worked on the issues assigned to us, but only managed excuses to get out of a mess, if any). A final practice before we face them. Ok. We are ready.

Scene: In the cabin of our nemesis 1

"What is the status of the work that I had assigned to you last week?"

Me : "Sir I have already given the status over mail 2 days ago. And also talked to you over the phone regarding the pending issue which is not a complication. "

"Why do you send me a mail? Why can you not give me the status by talking to me."

Me : "Sir, I talked to you on the phone."

"Did you?"

Me : "Yes sir. I had called you 2 days back and also sent a mail."

Slowly he checks his mail not believing a word I said. Also the trust factor comes in. These people, whom I call my NEMESIS 1, does not believe a word we ever say as they believe whatever we say can not be true. Even if we go one day and tell them that the system is crashed they would not believe it. Only after making us sit there for three quarters of an hour does he realize the gravity of the situation at hand. Finally after the long endearing process of searching the mail he acknowledges me and says, "Yes, Yes." . Even though my work is done I had to sit through the whole process of him interrogating every other person in that room who did not work directly under him.

Another frustrating part of this office is that they seem to love toilet talk. Well at least most of them do. If you want to use the washroom you should be a hundred percent sure that none of my arch nemesis is around and also anticipate that they might not use the loo. It is a game actually.

Scene: They catch you in the toilet

You are standing there doing your business in the toilet. Door opens, in comes Nemesis 2. He seems to be delighted to have found me in the toilet. But does not show it yet. I am unaware as to who has entered into the bathroom and continue doing what I was doing. Suddenly there is a voice which calls my name. I cannot turn, because of obvious reasons.

Me : "Hello Sir."

" What happened to the pending issue that someone had reported to me regarding the changes for the .... (blah blah)?"

Me : (Most definitely blank)"I am sorry sir? I do not know what you are talking about."

"Arre.. Woh nahi tha kya?...... (blah blah again)"

Me : "I am working on that sir." (but he does not realize that the issue I was working on right at that moment had stopped functioning.)

Me : (thinking) "damn will have to get back later."

As soon as I come out wash my hands and prepare to take leave. He occupies his position as goes about his business without any hassles and turns and says, "OK we will discuss this later. (DAMN HIM DAMN HIM)". A humble "yes" and I am out of there.

Sometime instead of discussing work he tends to discuss different topics other than work and if he is in a jovial mood then he would talk about anything. I can not think about any other thing but he enjoys small talk while carrying forth his business.

There is also my nemesis 1. He does not enjoy small talk in the toilet. But if he sees you in the toilet he would silently go about his business clean his hands dry them up and walk out of the toilet. Walk till his cabin. Settle down comfortably. Think about something or clean up his desk. Count till 5. And then pick up the phone ands calls for you to give the status of the problems which might be pending against you.

My Drunken Conversations

Defining art. Sitting there mesmerized by the true colors used in a painting if ever you have seen one. Admiring the brush stroke. Would I really define art as been that of a classy painter who uses brilliant colors? No, I dont think so. I would define art as .... lets see. Art according to me is creative. It is the amalgamation of talent and clarity of thought.

"No, it is not according to me. I respect your point of view. But hear it out. What is creativity? If you can create something out of nothing is not creativity. Creativity is a thought within you. A thought of excelling in one, two, or any number of activities."

But then doing something like that would require something like should I term it as a Catalyst.

I would say you require guts. Guts to actually think in that field. Everyone looks at safety. But how many decide on living happily. They pretend to buy happiness. Most of them are successful. But as far as my experience goes happiness is where your heart is. Now a days, my heart beats for a reason to live. But not to experience every moment.

"You say Catalyst. I say realization. You have lost your heart and have started out to find it. That is a result of realization. Your creativity sticks by you no matter what. It is asking you, begging you for attention....."

But there is a hurdle. The hurdle of safety over satisfaction.

"Safety lies where your heart is. If you think I am creative it is because you have seen my drawings and letting me know. Heard of this?... Jack of all trades, king of none..... "

Yeah sure. Are you telling me that you are the Jack?

"I believe, I am the Jack. Would rather be jack of all trades and apply creativity every where. Evenly distributed. No disparity. That would help me better myself to any situation I would have to face."

Thats a good one.

Slightly modified. Reason should be clear. As neither source nor writer remember the exact events. Special thanks to people who influenced me into writing this.

If any additions or suggestions please do let me know.